Hasn't anyone ever told you? Life isn't fair.

Wedding Day, what I'll miss — Don't Let Me Falll

There is a sentence in Twilight that Bella Swan says. " Hasn't anyone ever told you? Life isn't fair."-Pg. 49. Even though I am barely on here, and no one really knows me on this website, my biological father was shot in the head and killed March 08, 2014. I haven't had the best relationship with him, I used to see him every couple of weeks but over time it became never. I think about him everyday and how our future could be different, and now we will never know. I am only 16. I am still so young, his life was taken, not like it was his time. I cry when i'm alone, but most of the time I have a smile and barely anyone knows what has happened. No one knows that my heart is broken or that I am in complete shock and denial. Or that I keep missing school because I wake up in the middle of the night eyes wet from tears and sweat dripping dowm my face from bad dreams. arely anyone knows.

It made me think that could of happened to Bella Swan's dad. He was a cop, always in the line of danger when James, Laurent, and Victoria came and began killing innocent humans. What if Bella decided to be with her mom instead of her dad and one day he was killed? I wonder how different her life would be, how different anyone's life would be if they lost their father. Half of who they are. I love and miss him so much and as stupid as it may sound, reading the Twilight saga all over again and watching the movies help me. Twilight is my safe haven, even people can't understand it.

If anyone has been through adversity or just had a bad day or just are down in the dumps. It gets better and people may have it worst even though it is so hard to imagine. If you need anyone, I'm here. I may not know youbut I am here for you. If twilight is your safe haven tell me why below in the comments. Feel free to tell me what's going on in your life or if you have advice for me.

Just know that you should live life everyday full and happily, I never ever in a million years expected my dad to be murdered, no one did. So just be positive and make good choices, and say what you need to say, don't live lives with what if's, because you don't know if tomorrow will come. And if it doesn't you don't want to live with regrets.

Thanks for listening, if anyone did.

Love Always, Twilightloveforever :/